this is how i found my beloved Bow Bear this morning. half-on/half-off my bed. it must have been a moment of great consternation to the once-fluffy little guy. deprived of magic nighttime animation since i was awake, he must have been thinking, DAMN DUDE, I FUCKING HATE MONDAYS.
Archives for the month of: June, 2004
goodness me! who’d have thought falling madly in love would have the cheeky side-benefit of becoming the of-the-minute blog couple? it’s really all thanks to the charming mike, who heartily believes in love and is abusing his position as uborka cocktail master of ceremonies by throwing us our very first virtual engagement party. pop over and have a glass! stuart’s even going to make a speech. me, i’m going to stand there looking drunk and pretty. or is that pretty drunk?
we have a bit of an announcement. we’re engaged. perhaps you didn’t think we could get any crazier. well, you were wrong.
the day stuart left new york, we had some emotional moments alone together in my sunny bedroom. while we both somehow knew we wanted this to go on forever, neither of us had said as such aloud. until stuart asked me if i’d marry him, and it didn’t take me more than two seconds to say yes. we didn’t know when or how, but we knew we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. and that we’d figure it out. together.
and so it came to pass that two weeks ago, i sent along a treasured package to the INS asking the US government to grant a fiance visa for stuart to move here, marry me, and get permanent residency. between that charmed state of love-struck optimism and some heartening timelines from the INS, we may well be tying the knot before the end of the year. and never was a knot more happily tied.
never for a moment have we doubted how right this is. walking away from each other, both in march and yesterday, was the hardest thing we’ve done. but saying yes, and sending those forms, has been the easiest. as a stellar side-benefit, our friends and family have been complete superstars. while shaking their heads a little amusedly, they’ve rallied one hundred and twenty percent behind us.
what’s most important, though, isn’t forms or passports or visas. it’s that i am completely in love with this man, and i knew two days into meeting him that i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking by his side. so, here’s that first step of the journey. welcome along.
i’ve never been so happy for five solid days of my life.
and i’ve never been so unhappy to see the jeweled night skyline of my beloved city.
and i’ve never felt like weeping so much when i set down my bags in this cozy apartment, because for five days, there’s been someone standing right next me, arms sloped around shoulders and hands tucked in back pockets. and now the air is empty. and that’s so very wrong.
let tomorrow bring back my smiles and my joy. let me look through pictures tomorrow and face the world with a brave face and hold my chin up high. tonight, please just let the sweet oblivion of sleep wipe away such sudden loss after such exhilirating beauty.
