Archives for the month of: September, 2005

I figured I was crazy this morning, when I put a sweater in my gym bag, but it’s one of my favourite light fall sweaters, a faded charcoal grey, and it looks so good with the perfect suede hobo bag I happened to find myself buying at lunch. What, can I help it when a purse sale happens in my very own conference room? Can I? No.
Where was I? Oh, sweater. I thought I was a little delusional, packing a sweater for what was sure to be another 80 degree September day. And it looked that way, in the morning, before the rain storm. But when I went out at four to pick up a little pick me up coffee, suddenly I was chilly in my sweater, and the coffee in my hands was the perfect warmer. Nevermind that I spilled it all over my desk when I got upstairs, that doesn’t fit in with this beautiful moment I’m sharing. Incidentally, I won’t want to drink a mocha for the next few months since my whole desk smells like one now. Great.
It seems, then, that the rain may have swept away the very last of the warmer September days, and with it comes New York’s best season. Autumn is where the city really shows her colors, and not just in Central Park. The Hudson usually looks dingy and swampy in the summer, but in autumn’s gentle lights it has the deep blue luminescence of the ocean it empties into. The streets in the late afternoon slanting light sparkle, the brownstones and brick townhomes of the village look like the backlot to your very own perfect life.
People look better in autumn, too. I won’t deny that the women of New York shine in summer, with their tanned shoulders and their big sunglasses, but October and November bring out a more serious, more subtly sexy wardrobe for our leading ladies. The scarves, wrapped around throats and shoulders, the tall brown boots and the collegiate look are the rage every season, no matter what the fashion magazines try to tell us about style. Winter in New York is brutal and rarely an outlet for fashion, so we use fall as our runway, the autumnal browns and the eye-catching jewel tones. Fall is a good time for new bangs, new boots, matching wool with cotton, and long walks.
Men, too, have it really great in autumn. I always feel a little bad for the men of New York in summer. Those suits! It doesn’t matter how breathable the salesguy told them that suit was, they look uncomfortable in the 90 degree weather. It may be the only time you’ll see a guy looking enviously at a sundress. But in the fall, their suits look perfect, just like they should. The more casual guys among us get to pull out the sweaters without six layers of scarves and coats, they get to wear cordoroy which looks so handsome on them, and those lucky enough to be fair-skinned with dark hair get that beautiful pink glow to their cheeks that makes women melt a little.
Yeah, the parade is its most beautiful in the fall. Several of our favourite indulgences, like coffee bars and Central Park, are at their most applicable. Dates, in the fall, have the most intimacy and fervor, without the clammy sweatiness of summer or the biting edge of winter. The city is, for at least a few weeks in October, literally perfect.
Perhaps it’s just me. October has always been my favourite month, with pumpkins being sold at the green grocer and argyle being sold at the stores. All my preppiest fashion indulgences make the most sense, all my friends have pink cheeks and laughs that carry down the street on a crisp wind. October reminds me of everything I moved to the northeast to enjoy. When my friends took me to Bar Harbor in 1999, I literally could not believe my eyes. Every corner turned, every little hill summitted, was like walking into a chalk drawing a la Mary Poppins. I stood at the tops of winding road and just stared at the red and gold trees and the blue sky and the shining grey gravel of the lane.
And now, our anniversary is in October. So is Stuart’s birthday, and the day he arrived in the country, and my brother’s birthday, and Halloween, and hot apple cider and pound cake and mulled wine. But most of all, October is my favourite time to be a New Yorker.
Everyone’s wearing their finest, everyone is at their best, and today, I finally flipped the calendar on my work desk in anticipation of it all, you know, right after I’d spilled my coffee all over it. I can’t wait to get out there and meet friends for dinner and Alias, to feel just a little cold in the shade, and to get another cup of coffee. And maybe a few scarves.

Biscuit insisted that I try this middle-school-era ipod test, where you listen to the first 13 songs on random shuffle, as answers to the following questions.
1. What do you think of me, Random Music Player?
On your own, by Blur
huh?
2. Will I have a happy life?
Don’t go breaking my heart, Elton John
I’m going… to hang out with a very well dressed gay man, singing choruses in unison forever? Wait, don’t I do that already?
3. What do my friends really think of me?
maybe you’ve been brainwashed too, New Radicals
Well, thank god we’re all brainwashed TOGETHER, then.
4. What does my S.O. think of me?
Darling Nikki, Foo Fighters
Oh LORD this one makes me sort of happy.
5. Do people secretly lust after me?
Wouldn’t it be nice, The Beach Boys
So, not so much lust as want to set up house with me.
6. How can I make myself happy?
Anna begins, Counting Crows
Wait, to be happy I have to be uncomprehendingly depressing and eventually get dumped or something? Interestingly pointless.
7. What should I do with my life?
winter song, the Ceasars
I say, huh? again.
8. Why must life be so full of pain?
Walking on the sun, Smashbox
Oh, I get it, because wonderful artists keep getting underplayed while frat boy morons like these guys get airplay? Please do not point out the obvious fact that this is MY iPod.
9. How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
i don’t know what it is, Rufus Wainwright
I DO SO KNOW WHAT IT IS, RUFUS.
10. Can you give me some advice?
16 military wives, the Decemberists
I’ve got nothing to say to this.
11. What do you think happiness is?
(nice dream), Radiohead
Wow, you have a really depressing life view, has anyone ever told you that, iPod?
12. Do you have any advice to give over the next few hours/days?
Songs of love, Divine Comedy
So what you’re saying is, hang out with moony pre-pubescent boys?
13. Will I die happy?
Nothing ever, Wilco
Okay, this makes me happy, since the chorus is basically “I believe a kiss is all we need, nothing’s ever going to stand in my way.” I’ll give you this one, iPod.
I’m really glad there was no #14, since the fourteenth song was Roses, by Outkast.
* I know this title is awful. Count yourself lucky I didn’t call it “every meme, every youyou”.

… but the live version of Wham’s Careless Whisper covered by Ben Folds and Rufus Wainwright is FUCKING GENIUS.)

At six thirty on the outbound platform at Queensboro Plaza, there were a lot of really pissy people. We’d all gotten here somehow, determined to make it across the river, past the snarl of stalled trains in various tunnels. We’d been turned back at Times Square, put on the E or the V, jumped on a crowded 4/5 from 59th/Lex to get onto the 7 at Grand Central, hell, maybe some of us had walked across the bridge.
We’d gotten to Queensboro any way we knew how, and now they were telling about 250 people that there were to be no outbound N/W trains snaking up to the last six stops on the line. They were telling us that everyone going to those last six stops had to just take a bus, or walk. And it looked like rain. It really looked like rain.
I’d left the office at 5:15 and here I was at 6:30, only halfway home. I had been reading a crappy magazine at very close range on the very shaky train and I was getting the beginnings of that sort of headache that isn’t going away any time soon. I was hungry and cranky and so was everyone around me. And when the announcer told us all, effectively, to sod off and make our own damn way home, I couldn’t figure out what to do. Walk? I was in heels and tired. Catch a bus or taxi? Me and two hundred odd of my fellow travelers. Sit down on that there seat right here on the platform, pull out the phone and see if I could warn Stuart about the mess and figure out where he was? Check.
So I pushed gently through the confused people and I started to ease my body into the bench and look for my phone in my bag when BAM. There he was. Stuart was standing about 10 people away, also looking around for his phone and staring worriedly into the landscape of Queens.
I remember being pretty thrilled when I saw Stuart at the airport, all three times we were reunited. I remember being pretty thrilled when we got married. But damn if this wasn’t a close rival, to see his familiar – so incredibly familiar it make my heart ache and leap – face in the midst of the angsty throngs of commuters. My voice must have sounded a bit desperate when I said, “Stuart!” and he looked at me, smiled like he knew he’d find me eventually, and came over to sweep me up in a hug.
It wasn’t that bad of a subway snarl. It wasn’t even that bad of a headache. Like many times before that one. I would have gotten home okay. But this time, I got a break. I didn’t really have to surmount any irritations or just hold it together until I got home. I got to just lean into a hug, get guided downstairs and along the street until we hailed a taxi. I got to be a little more clingy, a little more needy, and a little less tough and independent.
It was kind of nice.


My sister and her long-time boyfriend got married in front of a Justice of the Peace a week ago, and it was an honor to be there and photograph it for her.

I’ve known George since as long as I can remember, and Tania for longer, and they met through our family – my brother, to be exact.

Of all the photos I took of them, though, this one strikes me as the most romantic.

Have a safe and happy weekend, and love your people.




… just freaking LOVE chihuahuas. So there. You should know that about me before this goes any farther.
I have nothing to say today except that I love chihuahuas. LOVES THEM.

Tonight’s episode of House M.D. brought up two interesting questions, neither of them related to cancer, clots, or the ethical viability of medically killing someone just to take a brain scan and bring them back to life.
These questions are:
1. is it OKAY to like Clem Snide’s version of Christina Aguilera’s vapid song “Beautiful”? Because when House is listening to it on his iPod, I liked it so much, I downloaded it. Is this morally okay?
2. Since I met Stuart, I’ve only found one man truly attractive (this is to be differentiated from “being attracted to one man” since I’m only attracted to Stuart), and that man is Hugh Laurie. The bags under the eyes. The sallow cheeks. The effete outfits on Blackadder. The everything of that man. Is this morally okay?
See? Who said television can’t make you think about deeply important issues?

I took a break from work and sat outside, drinking water and reading the Metro section of today’s New York Times. I read an article about the search for Amelia Earhart. More specifically, it’s about one female pilot that has paid for and repaired a 1935 Lockheed Electra L-10E, identical to the one that Earheart was flying when she vanished. She plans to fly this plane over the exact same route that Earheart flew when she disappeared.
Now, I tell you this to prep you for the following brief grammatical exercise. I am going to quote, verbatim, the entire third paragraph, which consists of two sentences. Sentence the first:

“One woman’s desire to solve that mystery is being refueled at Allaire Airport in Belmar, New Jersey.”

and the second:

“Grace McGuire, 54, a pilot, is hoping to recreate and successfully complete Earheart’s final voyage.”

Let’s visit the construction of that first sentence, shall we? I am going to make typographical notations when I reprint it.

One woman’s desire [to solve that mystery] is being refueled at Allaire Airport in Belmar, New Jersey.

The italicized text refers to the subject of our sentence, that is, what the sentence is about. The underlined text is the predicate, as in, what is being done to or by our subject. In brackets is a prepositional phrase and as such, can be happily removed from the sentence without losing any meaning. So now we have:

One woman’s desireis being refueled at Allaire Airport in Belmar, New Jersey.

Desire? Being refueled? Perhaps metaphorically? No, it can’t be a metaphor, or figurative at all, can it? After all, the writer mentions a specific location, the writer is implying that the desire actually exists in some sort of desire-dispensing container at a very specific airport in Belmar, New Jersey. What an airport, right?
I included the second sentence not because it had an equally profoundly stupid grammatical faux pas, but to prove that the author of our article, in an attempt to provide a badly-placed image linking desire (an intangible subject) with an airplane (which runs on actual fuel), needed that second sentence to get across the actual point of the paragraph. He needed the straight man to say, “yes, actually, we’re talking about a person, her plane, and her desire to do something with that plane.”
I found this sentence both offensive and alarmingly badly constructed. I don’t think I’ve ever been so offended by a sentence, actually, because it’s such a horrific mishmash of correctly-used grammatical elements – the subject, the predicate, the darling prepositional clause so near to my heart – and uselessly confusing metaphor. I had to read it three times to understand that he didn’t actually mention the plane being refueled at all, but one woman’s desire to solve a mystery. Which involved a plane. But not in that sentence.
See?
Similarly, on the opposing page, there was a headline about Oprah Winfrey and a public apology from Hermes. The headline ran, “Oprah, No Diva She, Accepts Hermes Apology on the Air”. Oprah, no diva she? Who talks like that? Why is there all this unnecessary flowerization of the standard, trustworthy English language? Did all the staff-writers and copy editors die, only to be replaced by Henry James, Marcel Proust, and Edith Wharton? No diva, she?
Between the Oprah headline and the fuel of desire, permit this normally eloquent reader a small moment of WTF?
New York Times, while you’re going through this difficult and challenging transition to NYTIMES PREMIUM SELECT ELITE DOT COM, consider shifting some much-needed energy from fleecing your customers to de-flowerizing your copy edit staff.

Walking to the subway this morning, I saw a guy wearing a teeshirt that said “A Watched Pot Never Boils”. Stare at that last sentence with me, imagine it on a teeshirt, and then insert whatever version of “what the fuck?” is appropriate to your language/culture/generation.
I kept walking down the street wondering who in god’s name had actually produced that tee shirt. But then I thought about how much I hate all those uselessly unfunny and yet meant to be ironic teeshirts at Urban Outfitters, you know the ones that say things like “Hugs Not Drugs” or “C is for Crunk” (basically if you’re someone that owns a teeshirt that says something like that you really need to consider putting this blog down and backing away slowly).
So if I hate all those teeshirts (and I do, oh my god how I do, although I make the exception for the “You Say tomato, I say Fuck You” teeshirt), I can’t possibly hate a teeshirt that veers in exactly the opposite direction of quoting useless and unrelated, unironic aphorisms like “A Watched Pot Never Boils”. And, really, there are so many good idioms and expressions that have yet to be put on teeshirts. Like, “There’s more than one way to skin a cat”, or “Spare the Rod, Spoil the Child”, and even, “A Leopard Cannot Change His Spots” or “Don’t Shit Where You Eat”.
Actually, I really want a teeshirt that says, “Live by the Sword, Die by the Sword”. And by “sword”, I mean, “sarcasm” and “vodka”. I would be so unironic about wearing that shit, you don’t even KNOW.

On Friday night, we stayed up past our bedtimes tinkering on our computers. Stuart wrote and played Civilization and I ordered various birthday and anniversary surprises for him. On Saturday, we woke up late and hit our favourite diner for lunch, and then dragged ourselves to the park to lay in the shade and read. I watched kids run around and no less than two wedding parties take photographs under Hell Gate bridge, while Stuart listened to a Kanye West CD he’d bought at a stoop sale on the way to the park.
Wandering home past Ditmars with the intent to grab coffee at Starbucks, we walked past someplace that’s already won a place in our hearts, a little cafe called freeze peach, with couches and local babies hanging out and delicious iced tea and absurdly cheap wireless. It started raining while we were in there which made it all the easier to settle in for two more iced teas, and taking up station at two of the aging PC laptops, we did research for various writing projects and emailed each other snarky commentary about other patrons. We walked home and ordered Chinese food and I settled down with my notes and my laptop and banged out some writing, while Stuart squashed people with enormous helicopters in San Andreas.
On Sunday, we managed to wake up before noon and decided to make a day of it in the north end of Central Park. Grabbing bagels at 30th avenue, our day hit a glitch when the subway wouldn’t run directly to Queensboro Plaza, we had to ride back up to Astoria Blvd and then ride all the way down to QBP nonstop. Urgh! I had to eat my bagel standing up in the train but I tried not to complain as much as I usually do when I’m hungry and shaky. We got to the park and wandered through the Conservatory Garden for a few minutes.
Reading Devil In the White City is giving me an even greater appreciation for Olmstead and what he did with Central Park. Even though I like the Garden, it’s when you leave its gates and walk into that unique gentle wilderness that Olmstead made, you see the wooded island in the Meer and the way even the rocky hill is thoughtfully placed, you wish you could shake his hand.
We borrowed two bamboo poles from the Dana Center and found a shady spot to fish. Stuart ran across the street for spam and we dried it in the sun to use at bait. You’d be hard-pressed to call what I did fishing – it was more like gently feeding lunchmeats to the crafty nibblers at the bottom. Stuart fooled them, though – he caught two. Releasing them was scary since you have to gently unhook their mouths and then slip them back into the water. When we go camping, it’s been decided, we’re getting a second rod and second temporary permit for me. Who knows, maybe I’ll even get brave enough to touch one, if I catch it.
On the walk up to 125th street, we walked through Mount Morris neighborhood and it was so charmingly Harlem..ian? Ladies in resplendent African-patterned dresses outside an old church, Neighborhood cafes packed full of intelligentsia and young teenagers shouting jokes to each other. It was a neighborhood that, had it been mine, I would have been proud to call home.
On the bus ride back to Astoria, we started chatting to these two non-natives, who’d been visiting for the week. One, a teacher from Miami applying for the Fellows program, and the other, a teacher from North Carolina visiting his girlfriend. It’s amazing how quickly Stuart and I get to talking to strangers – is it something about us, when we’re together, that makes us approachable? Even a woman in the Garden, watching a jewish wedding from the bench next to ours (we were watching too, what, public weddings!) talked to us about our marriage, how we met, what she thought of the bride.
The one stranger we didn’t talk to was the young man hammering at a bike chain, three lampposts down from our own front door. We stood in the foyer, having a hushed discussion on whether he was stealing the bike. It was a Kryptonite chain he was hammering at, surely the sheer brashness of the attempt would bely it being theft? We couldn’t decide and, in a move I’m still not entirely comfortable with, decided to just assume it was his and not interfere. It still sits funny with me because for all the effort I make to interact with my neighbors both in Astoria and the whole city, what am I doing if I’m too chicken to say something about the guy and his bike, or to the obnoxious man chasing after and terrifying the Canada Geese in the park, or the man standing next to our fishing spot fly-fishing when it was strictly prohibited to do so in Harlem Meer?
Am I taking the best the city offers, and not trying to help ease the worst her citizens can do? Maybe it really was his bike, then wouldn’t he have felt assured that one of his neighbors took the pains to make sure she asked him? What if the irritated goose attacks some little kid holding her hand out? Fly-fishing can be traumatizing to the fish in the Meer, why wouldn’t I point out that he wasn’t supposed to?
Perhaps next time my surroundings and activities are so brilliant, I’ll make the extra effort to keep the city so beautiful. Besides, it’s just a bike, or a fish, I’d do something about a truly unfair or traumatic moment, right? Don’t know what I’m basing that on.
I’ll trail off callously and say it was a beautiful weekend and just what I needed.

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